"The Latest Dirt"

There are 15 tons of it in my driveway waiting to be wheelbarrowed to the front yard. It´s quite a picture, really. When the digital camera has recharged I will be sure to take pictures to share. In the mean time you will have to imagine what 15 tons looks like. I´m thinking it looks like a heck of a lot of work for one person to do (that one person being my dear husband), but he is sure that he can indeed "hack" it. We´ll see. I´m predicting that by Sunday he will have called someone to come help, or ordered a bull dozer to come push it around. At any rate, I´m pretty sure that I would be useless at moving it. I suspect that after about 5 or 6 wheelbarrow loads I´d be done for the day. But maybe this is my personal challenge to build new muscles? Not sure. Will have to debate that. Must go stare at said pile and wheelbarrow for a while before making a decision. I´m pretty sure my arms are like jelly or would be after a few rounds. Sad, I know.

Fertility ramblings

I know that my blog is sort of a misnommer at this point, but I promise I will get around to talking about my emerging garden, eventually.

Sitting outside at a local cafe today while enjoying the sunshine, a piece of Schwarzwälder Torte and a Latte, it suddenly dawned on me that today is March the fourth....I found out exactly a year ago that I was pregnant. Isn´t that just fine and dandy.

It also came to me that really every month has some sort of significance in my ttc journey. I´ll start at the beginning so you can get that nice chronology.

August 2007: I started PNVs for my upcoming ttc journey.
September 2007: Went to gynecologist to have my hormone implant removed and talk ttc with her.
November 2007: Got my first BFP and shortly there after had my first miscarriage.
February 2008: DH and I managed to get in the mood on Valentine´s Day despite the stress from our impending move to new home....
March 4, 2008: Second BFP!! (I was elated)
April 16, 2008: Miscarried for my second time and had emergency d&c
June 2008: had horrible cramping and spotting, got BFP and told the next day from new doc. that if I had been pregnant, it was over.
July 2008: my would be EDD from first pregnancy
September 2008: visit with geneticist and diagnosis of Leiden Factor V--now we have something that can be treated.
November 7, 2008: My would be EDD from second pregnancy
December 5th: BFP number four....
December 24, 2008: miscarriage from BFP number four--now if that isn´t a great way to celebrate Christmas, I don´t know what is....
February 2009: possible EDD from BFP number three....
August 15, 2009: EDD from BFP number four.

So I guess it´s not really every month since January, May and October don´t have any goings on--yet.... Maybe if you ask me in a year I´ll have a different story to tell.

I´ve come to decide that getting a sticky BFP must be like rolling dice. Some people get lucky and roll a six straight off, and others of us have to keep trying , and trying, and trying. So I guess that means that eventually I´ll get a sticky BFP? How many more rolls to go, I wonder.

PS: I bought a bunch of primroses and potted daffodils for my front steps today. Maybe I´ll take a picture for you to admire. In the fall I´ll be planting the bulbs and primroses in the garden. There you have it, my Carolina garden is coming to life.